Riyasha cried a lot as she remembered her life Torture and Threat to Kanchan

I fled my country I spent years in the asylum system.The Home Office just wouldn’t believe my story of how I had been detained & tortured.
My first claim was refused & I had to submit a fresh claim before they accepted what had happened to me & granted me refugee status.I spent years living as a home less person.When I came to London, I first lived with a friend but later things went wrong & she said I had to leave.It was very difficult for me.
I had to beg people for money to survive.I spent several years living on Section 4 which is administered by National Asylum Support Service.
I was provided with basic accommodation & given a weekly voucher I could use it to buy food & a few other basic items.I spent several years living on Section four which is administered by National Asylum Support Service.It was a terrible system for me.
I used to beg people to take the voucher & give me cash instead but no1 wanted it.Although this might sound good it was a terrible system for me.It could only be used at a super market & the nearest was quite a long way from where I stayed.
Super markets are quite expensive & they don’t always have the food I need.I couldn’t use the voucher at the market where I can buy the sort of food I want & it is cheaper as well.I used to beg people to take the voucher & give me cash instead but no1 wanted it.I couldn’t use the voucher for the other things I needed like topping up my mobile phone credit.
We get calls & texts telling us where & when to go for appointment we need to be able to receive & reply to them but we can’t do it if we can’t to top up our mobile credit.
& Those appointment for example, reporting to the Home Office at the right time are so important to us.I remember 1time I stood at a bus stop & begged a woman there to give me some money so I could take the bus & make my appointment.She said no & then threatened to call the police to take me away.I just started crying I was in such despair.Living with out money & a proper home made my illness worse.I was so ill that I was hospitalised for 4 months before I was sent to temporary accommodation.
In those days, I seemed to cry a lot.Life was so difficult & my situation seemed hopeless.Living with out money & a proper home made my illness worse.I was so ill that I was hospitalised for 4 months before I was sent to temporary accommodation.
Now I have refugee status & things are more settled but before then I really just existed.I am on benefits so I can go to the market & buy what food I want.I can buy food from my country food like cassava & semolina & sometimes some fish it all reminds me of home.I am still ill I can’t walk easily & get dizzy spells & life is difficult but I get by.
I still attend therapy sessions at Freedom from Torture to help me over come the terrible memories of the torture I suffered.Our Emergency Relief Fund provides small cash grants to torture survivors who need urgent funds to help them buy essential items including travel cards & mobile phone top-ups.